“of course I’ll love someone else. first loves are first loves so there’s always a place for them, but falling in love a second time with someone else or however many times someone actually falls in love in life is tons better because of all the experience you gain from the previous times around.”

I can’t wait to fall in love again. It’s going to happen. I fell in love for the first time at 15. I fell in love for the second time at 19. It takes time and patience, but it’s eventually going to happen. My counselor once told me, “People who WANT to be in love usually find love.” I’m pretty sure he would still be pissed off if I told him I was still hung up on my ex. My counselor was pretty much the only person I trusted with this aspect of my life. He told me straight out that my ex simply didn’t have the capacity to love me like I wanted to be loved. He KNEW that we weren’t good together. KNEW. He told me I was better off without him, and it made me feel better considering he actually knew my ex and what he was like.

I don’t want to be with my ex. He’s rude, selfish, and thinks no one’s good enough for him. That’s what I hated the most. THE FACT THAT I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM. I could never be pretty enough for him or skinny enough. I wasn’t fun enough, and I wasn’t lame enough. If I even thought about making friends, he simply told me I was acting like I was too cool. He didn’t like me having fun because he was insecure with himself. Now, I’m the insecure one and he’s the one with tons of self-confidence. Awesome. I need to get my confidence back! I used to have fun and wanted to go out! Now, I’m terrified to be seen in public. I feel guilty, but I shouldn’t. I am good enough for someone. Someone in this world has to believe that I’m good enough. I’m more than enough.

One of the funniest things is I’ve finally looked at his two most recent ex-loves. We’re all so alike. We’re cute girls who are determined to succeed. His ex is an education major like myself who decided that she doesn’t need him and is living an awesome life without him! She’s traveling, making LOADS of new friends, and is having a blast even though she’s single. The girl that he cheated on me with is a determined bioresearch major who is getting scholarships left and right and is even completing an internship in a different state right now. They both decided that they don’t need him to be happy and successful because they created it for themselves. THAT’S WHAT I NEED TO DO! CREATE MY OWN HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS. THEY DON’T NEED HIM AND NEITHER DO I! My ex simply reminds me of my ex bf. Smokes pot all day, hangs out with his loser friends, and hates anyone who is doing something with their life. I’M DONE WITH HIS PESSIMISM and CYNICISM. I DON’T WANT THAT IN MY LIFE ANYMORE! I want someone who’s gonna be happy for me and support me, not make me feel like what I love isn’t enough.

Honestly, you’re a pretentious, arrogant fool and you’re gonna get yours. Life’s gonna give it to you. Or God will for that matter. /done

I am ugly - I am beautiful

I am worthless - I have worth

I am sick - I will heal

I hate myself - I will learn to love myself

I am weak - I am strong, or I wouldn’t be here today

I am moody - I have profound emotional depth

I am lost - I will find myself

I am scared - I have courage

I am crazy - It is normal to struggle

I am in pain - It’s okay to hurt

I am tired - I will not give up

I’m not good enough - I am better than “good enough”

I can’t change - I can change

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do you ever feel like you like someone a lot more than they like you and then start to feel like you’re just annoying them because while you always want to talk to them they probably don’t always want to talk to you and it stresses you out a lot and then you just start to feel really depressed about it

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LOVE

GAHH hard boiled eggs <3

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Those stickers on fruits and veggies tell you quite a bit! 4 numbers mean they were conventionally grown. 5 numbers starting with number 8 means they are genetically modified (GMO). And 5 numbers starting with 9 means they were organically grown.

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